_.:&&That's Life... Live it, Love it, Learn from it:._

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 17:04:31 GMT

i want to give you the grace that led me
to this state of mind, it's beautiful
a beautiful tragedy -with broken wings

"well i didnt mean for this to go as far as it did,
&i didnt mean to get so close and share what we did,
&i didnt mean to fall in love, but i did,
&i know you didnt mean to love me back, but i know you did.
*we've got nothing left to prove*
&i didnt mean to meet you then, we were just kids,
&i didnt mean to give you chills, the way that i kiss
*and i didnt mean to fall in love... but i did*"
A lonely September~ by Plain White T's

Take me as i am,or not at all
i aint ever gonna change myself for no one
no compromise cause it's my life
it's all or nothing
-vanessa hudgens

Slip inside the back of your mind
dont you kow you might find
a better place to play? ~oasis

Love cures people, both the ones who give, and the ones who recieve

"You have been folllowed back to the same place i sat with you drink for drink, take the pain out of love, and then love wont exist..." -The Acadamy Is...

Fat, Ugly
people call me
loud faces, cry, gestures
unimportant, hurt, teary-eyed
mirror, cracked, fist, bloody
heart, filled, but not with love
with hate, towards those too shallow
to look at the person i really am
and that is simply
simply me - Me

Some people come into our lives
and quickly go. Some stay for a
while, and leave footprints on our
hearts, and we are never the same.

I've heard it said
that people come into our lives for a reason
bringing something we must learn
and we are led to those
who help us most to grow
if we let them
and we help them in return
well i dont know if i believe that's true,
but i know i'm who i am today
because i knew you...

I know now the place i was trying to reach
was you right here in front of me
and i wouldnt change a thing
i'd walk right back through the rain
back to every broken heart
on the day that it was breaking.
And i'd relive all the years
and be thankful for the tears
i've cried with every stumble, step
that led to you and got me here.
-RF

and now we're left with the what ifs
she's an angel with a dirty face
and it seems to me
she's a casuality of all the pressure
that we put on her
and now we've lost her for good ~Hinder

She never walked on water
cause no one really saw her
She had a lot to prove and so many to please
she's just somebody's daughter
just looking for somebody to love her... ~Hinder

if you're not afraid to love
if you're not afraid to give
if you're not afraid of us
let me hear you say "i will"

i do my thing, and you do yours, i am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not here to live up to mine, you are you, and i am i, and if by chance we find eachother, it's - B E A U T I F U L -

If there's love...
I just want to have somethin' to do w/ it
I just wanna feel yours
~Citizen Cope

Soooo, i'm doing some HARDCORE cleaning out of the away messages now... I HAVE A BOYFRIENDD!
Rob... and we started dating December 17th. He's great... and with something as beautiful and cheery as
he is, i dont need stuff this depressing in my away messages. soooo here they are <3 .

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 02:47:08 GMT

It well may be
that we will never meet again
in this lifetime
so let me say before we part
so much of me is made of
what i learned from you
you'll be with me
like a handprint on my heart
and now whatever way our stories end
i know you have rewritten mine
by being my friend
For Good - Wicked

I wanted you to be everything to me
now i've got to learn to carry on
i know i cannot hide this emptiness inside
but nothing is the same since you've gone
Forever - Vertical Horizon

I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but i know
one day you and i will be free
to live and die by our own rules
despite the fact that men are fools
Well excuse me while i get killed softly,
Heart slows down and i can hardely tell
you i'm okay, at least till yesterday. You
know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when i say it's hard.
And i was trying to disappear
but you got me wrapped around you
i can hardly breathe without you
i was trying to disappear
but i got lost in your eyes now
you brought me down to size now.
Half Alive -Secondhand Serenade

I got all this time to be waiting
for what is mine
to be hated for what i am
after the light has faded.
hanginaround -counting crows

Remember when there was nothing else to do but lie in bed and wonder how it was always up to you and no one else and early mornings make by warnings what's the point of the alarm that i'm ignoring?Turn my head it's back to bed with no delay can't be bothered by the phone ten times a day why get up, my morning doesnt even start till two forget reality, waking up is hard to do. remember when we would hang out every day and we would rather not be told what to do or what to say cause nothing mattered. never boring with slept in mornings, not ashamed of bad habits that i'm forming. it's not important if days are shortened, i can't make time when nothings new. What's a day when it all ends up the same, and last forever? can't complain when there's nothing there to blame, and things cant be better. summer evenings, teenage grievings, got no problem with the life that i've been leading. no concentration on hesitation, i cant make time when nothings new, cause waking up is hard to do so! "Heart attack - Sum 41"

is this the end of everything we know
this is the end of everything i am
is anybody out there? Hello Alone.
i feel helpless waiting for your return
are you ever coming home?
Hello Alone - Anberlin

It's amazing what i let my heart go through
to get me where it got me
in this moment here with you
and it passed me by
god knows how many times
i was so caught up in holding
what i never thought i'd find
Here-Rascal Flatts

She loved partying and having too much fun
then she hooked up with the wrong someone
and he promised everything under the sun
and it seems to me
she's a casuality of all the pressure
that he put on her
and now we've lost her for good
Homecoming queen ~ Hinder

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world
but it's feeling like every other morning before,
now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?
Well i, believe, it all, is coming to an end...
Started crying and i couldnt stop myself
i started running but there's no where to run to
i sat down on the street, took a look at myself
said where you going man?
-You know the world is headed for hell
Say all goodbyes
-if you've got someone you can say goodbye to
How Far We've Come -Matchbox20

That's fine
And i've made it through the darkest hour
made it to the other side of you
i can live without you
i live for the day, i live for the night
that you will be desperate and dyin' inside
i live for the tears to fall down your face
i live for the words you finally say...
Live for the day - Lindsey Lohan

i remember those days...
those days...
when i was your world...
i was your heart and soul...
you're everything...
boy... do i miss those days...
</3 KJM

I swear.
there is a tattoo on my forehead
that only guys can see that says
"I wanna date an asshole"
[How do i get that off?]

I wanna be around to pick up the pieces
when somebody breaks your heart
some somebody twice as smart as i
a somebody who will swear to be true
as you used to do with me
who'll leave you to learn
that mis'ry loves company - wait and see
i mean, i wanna be around to see how she does it
when she breaks your heart to bits
lets see if the puzzle fits so fine
and that's when i'll discover that revenge is sweet
as i sit there applaudin' from a front row seat
when somebody breaks your heart
like you, like you broke mine...
wanna be around -tony bennett

Why am i even here? i wonder
Now in my corner i got the ceiling in my eyes
arms holding up my knees
and rocking back and forth my life
i didnt mean to feel this way
when i walked in the door
then they ripped away my memories
and i cant remember who i was before
and i only wanted to be 16 and free
... and i wonder - Blind Melon

She spends her days up in the north Park
Watching the people as they pass
and all that she wants is just a little piece of this dream...
is that too much to ask?
All she wants is just that something to hold on to..
that's all she needs... If i could be like that,
i would give anything...

Does it ever get easier to live like this?
Kiss the Cheed, for i can't kiss you anymore
Oh, i have the hardest time resisting you
And oh,i'd try to give you everything
and if i fail, well then i fail,
but at least i gave you somethin
if i fail ~Cartel

Finally content with a past i regret...
i've loved like i should, and lived like i shoudlnt...
i had to lose everything to find out...
maybe forgiveness will find me
somewhere down this road... im moving on...
moving on ~R.F.

I'm single again... I thought it was perfect
i dont know how...
And never will you find another bitch like me...
I hope you find what you're looking for
single again - trina

My scars are yours today
This story ends so good
i love you, and i understand
that you stood where i stood
i'm Done healing... ~Flyleaf =D

she'sstandinginfrontofthemirror;
her whole life passes in front of her in slow motion.
the girl in the mirror says to herself "thats not me"
but she cant go back now.
those awful decisions in her life will follow her foreverr.
she wants to go back, but she knows things will never be the same
no matter how hard she tries.
this girl, she stands in front of her mirror
watching the silent tears fall down her face
thinking about where everything started going wrongg.
oh yeahh, she remembers. it all started when he broke my heart...<//3

Greattt night.
happy birthday daddy <3 .
g'night. hopefully more tomorrow

Fresh Starts, to Prepare for a new year...

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 02:22:46 GMT

Maybe i should take your advice
and never look twice
i've had my share of stories
more grotesque than my insecurities
i've sold myself short,
learned to forget your name
so i wouldnt get hurt
but it costs more than it's worth...
collapse of confidence - Ambry

i see the angels,
i'll lead them to your door,
there's no escape now,
no mercy no more,
no remorse cause i still remember
the smile when you tore me apart,
Angels -Within Temptations

Situations running through my head
well looking back through time
you know it's clear that i've been blind
i've been a fool
to ever open up my heart
to all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule
babylon -david gray

If you want it, come and get it
cryin out loud
the love that i was giving you
was never in doubt
let go your heart
let go your head
and feel it now
babylon -david gray

Run baby run
don't ever look back
run baby run
forever will be
you and me
i'll be waiting
wishing, wanting
yours for the taking
just sneak out
and dont tell a soul goodbye
check yes juliet -we the kings

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette
just a few drags to go
built me up and broke me down somehow
everything just seemed so clear to me
nothing left to know
i'll love you right
and i'll love you pure
right now
how can you say that it's too late
to save us now
And i would wait for you
if you would wait for me
and i will wait for you
if you will wait for me
cigarette -Yellow Card

~ Why can't i feel anything
from anyone - other than YOU ~
Cute without the 'e' - Taking Back Sunday

everyone gets in the way of everything
and i dont mind having someone around
if you listen and write then the lesson in life
isnt playing the role of the let down
and i know i'm casually learning to get down
and we're crazy concerned, attention deserved,
not playing the rold of the let down
DARE -The higher

but i must admit there was a couple secrets i held inside,
but just know that i tried to always apologize,
and i'ma have you first always in my heart.
Don't Matter -akon

Everything we had, Everything we had
is no longer there, longer there...
and i do regret more than i admit...
Everything we had - The Academy Is...

i give my hopes up and i watch them fall
everytime and all the colors turn to gray,
its so hard to watch it all fade away - HSM2

more later <3 .

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 01:48:02 GMT

I can take care of myself, yeay, you taught me well
i learned from you that i do not crumble
i learned that strenth is something you choose
all of the reasons to keep on believin'
there's no question that's a lesson, that i learned from you
we dont always agree on what is the best way
to get to the place that we're going from here, but i can really trust you
i'm gratefull for all the times you opened my eyes
you taught me to stand on my own, and i thank you for that.
you saved me, you made me, now that i look back...
-"i learned from you" hannah montana

i dont need alot of things,
i can get by with nothing,
with all the blessings life can bring
i've always needed something
but i've got all i want
when it comes to loving you
you're my only reason
you're my only truth
i need you like water
like breath like rain
i can't turn back now
becuase you've brought me too far
i need you...
-"I need you" by Leanne Rimes

i had a very good weekend, the ex and i spent a decent amount of time togehter... he even drove to my hosue to say goodbye to me before he left to go back to school, that never happens, oh well... you know the saying "dont keep your hopes up"... that i wont, but i sure will keep my head up, i've worked to hard to have this wall come crumbling down again... more next time...

the shortest distance between two people is a smile... hmm... ironic huh?

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:23:12 GMT

While you're sitting around
thinking about what you can't change,
and worrying about all the wrong things,
time's flying by, moving so fast,
you better make it count,
cause you cant get it back...

So dont say our goodbyes,
You know its better that way;
We wont break, we wont die,
It's just a moment of change,
All we were, All we were,
Was everything that's right...

I don't know if I'll ever know why
Or hear the sound when angel's cry
What you said to me late that night
I'll remember for the rest of my life
Every night when I close my eyes
I see the ways that you've touched my life
And I want you to know that I'll
Always be right here - "angels" by Hawk Nelson

I see you, angel of mine,
looking at me...
now i know why they say:
"the best things in life are free"
You helped me grow... "angel of mine" by monica

i can't help but wait 'til you, see you, for what you really are

~ Why can't i feel anything
from anyone - other than YOU ~ "cute without the 'e" " by Taking Back Sunday

Slip inside the back of your mind
dont you kow you might find
a better place to play?
Take that look from off your face
you aint never gonna burn my heart out...
~"dont look back in anger" by oasis

The nights fade away as I lie in bed alone, I keep my body still; I stay right by the phone
I come up with fantasies just to pass the time, In every moment I breathe, I wish that you were mine
Why do you touchier me so? Saying things that I wish not to hear
Your love unreturned from another, My eyes fill up with tears
You think I feel sorry for you, But I feel sorry for myself
My own selfish purpose, Those things I’ll never tell
All those times you hugged me, My heart just skipped a beat
All those girls you told me about, It felt like kind defeat
None of this was your fault, I always hid the signs
How I’d dream about you day and night, Wishing you were mine
So now the lights have dimmed, And my heart is cold and black
I will no longer hide my feelings, It’s ok to not give them back…

i thought we'd get to see forever,
but forever's gone away,
it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday..<3
~"say goodbye to yesterday" by boys to men

it's hard to know that you'll never remember the things i'll never forget.

Burned and broke, we talked for hours,
about what we learned, about what we lost,
i know that this will break yor heart, but go ahead and shout it.
You were in love but now you're hurting,
you make it so hard, to realize what we had is gone.
Saying things you dont mean, it tears me,
from the edges i will scream "can you hear me, are you listening?"
Let's talk trust, let's talk trust tonight...
You said these feelings were forever, but i know that you lied to me,
you dont know what you do, you dont know what you do to me
~"hey miss wright" by School Boy Humor

Why do you take it all?
Why do i beg for more?
I never thought that this is how i'd hit the floor...
~"hit the floor" by Bullet For My Valentine

Do you think about me now and then?
Cause i'm coming home again...
I told him in my heart is where he always be...
i guess you never know what you got till its gone,
guess this is why i'm here and i can't come back home...
reach for the stars, so if you fall you land on a cloud...
i'm coming home again, maybe we can start again...
~"homecoming" by Kanye West...

If it hurts at all, you havent shown it yet,
i keep lookin for the slightest sign
that you might miss what you left behind...

There you are giving up the fight
here i am, begging you to TRY
talk to me, let me in
how far do i have to go
to make you understand
i wanna make this work so much it hurts,
but i just cant keep on giving
go on living with the way things are
so i'm gonna walk away
and it's up to you to say how far
~"how far" by Martina Mcbride

i have a lot of homework to do,
i'll have more later... <3 <3 <3

A collapse of Confidence

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 14:47:21 GMT

When everything you'll get is,
everything that you've ever wanted
well which would you prefer:
My finger on the trigger, or
me face down, down across your floor?
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
this all was only wishful thinking
Lets go...
The only thing that i regret, is;
that i never let you hold Me back...
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
i will never ask if you dont ever tell me
i know you well enough to know you never loved me
i know you well enough to know...
And all of this was your fault
and all of this makes things worse
i say wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
i just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life...
~"Cute without the "e" " by Taking back sunday

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly...
How can i love you?
Looking at the last three years like i did,
i could never see us ending like this...
"do you know" by enrique...

All the jewels in heaven
They don't look the same to me
I just wade the tides that turned
'Til I learn to leave the past behind
It's only lies that I'm livin'
It's only tears that I'm cryin'
It's only you that I'm losin'
I guess I'm doing fine
All the battlements are empty
And the moon is laying low
Yellow roses in the graveyard
I got no time to watch them grow
Now I bade a friend farewell
I can do whatever pleases me
It's only lies that I'm livin'
It's only tears that I'm cryin'
It's only you that I'm losin'
I guess I'm doing fine
I press my face up to the window
To see how warm it is inside
I see the things that I've been missing
Missing all this time
It's only lies that I'm livin'
It's only tears that I'm cryin'
It's only you that I'm losin'
I guess I'm doin' fine
I guess I'm doin' fine
"doing fine" by Beck

I'm not holding my tongue for you anymore
i'll scream so loud, till i drown you out
now yo ucant hold me down anymore...
so many days of silence
too many destructive ways to vent
i hope they set something free
didnt know they were out to kill me
today i'll turn it all around
pick my self off the ground
sweat all the sickness out
force all the demons down
stand up and set it straight
get it right before it's too late
for now i'm feeling fine
left all the pain behind
it's time to live my life
i finally got it right
i can still taste the words on my tongue
saying we're okay
but when i raise my head up to see
the darker side, that isnt me
so now i raise my hands up so dired of giving in
throw his all aways and start again...
"drown you out" by Crossfade

my empty promises, led to our demise,
& i can never tell how i really feel,
& for that i eternally appologise,
we were both selfish, but i think i was more,
i would like to thank you for showing me,
a part of myself that i had never seen,
yeah we were young & dumb, but it still was fun,
& i guess these things just tend to fall apart,
& i hope you feel the same,
my empty promises, brought us to an end,
i just hurt you & now i have no logic to defend,
i would like to thank you for showing me,
a part of myself that i had never seen,
yeah we were young & dumb but it still was fun,
& i guess these things just tend to fall apart,
i would like to thank you for showing me,
a part of the world that i have never seen,
yeah i was young & dumb but it still was fun,
i am forever endebted to you,
& i hope you feel the same,
you are such a big part of my life & my heart...
"3685" by The Spill Canvas

Step up to me...
you wanna be a big time player
it's not to be
look at all the snide ass
actin like a wise ass
i'll fuck up your face
and you'll never look back...
so when you fall to the ground
and finally get back to reality
and no one at all is around
tell me how does it feel to be the enemy?
Look at your face, look at your name
it's funny, you're a loser with only yourself to blame
cut your fucking hair now
scared of all the stare downs
you wanna be like me cause it's real
never gonna be - never gonna see
you can always dream waht cha coulda been
clean up my shit, you look like a dick
step to unemployment - step
step up to me - you're the enemy
~"enemy" by Sevendust

           look into my eyes - you will see
                   what you mean to me
        search your heart - search your soul
& when you find me there, you'll search no more
         dont tell me, it's not worth tryin' for
             Take me as i am - take my life
         i would give it all, i would sacrifice
    i can't help it, there's nothing i want more
            everything i do - i do it for you
"everything i do" by Bryan Adams

there's so much i want to say now,
but it's too late i know,
there's no way to heal these wounds now,
& my heart bleeds for you,
& our love is crashing like a tidal wave coming over me,
so i wanted you to know that i finally let you go,
after all that i've held on to,
this is my goodbye to you,
i was always there for you,
but you never saw the truth,
& the reason that i know,
is i've finally let you go,
yesterday you were my best friend,
but tomorrow took you away,
goodbye, farewell, & every time i close my eyes,
my heart is bleeding deep inside,
but now my eyes are open,
& i'm never gonna be the one for you...
~"goodbye to you" by Breaking Point

it's so hard to say but i gotta do whats best for me.
youll be okay ive got to move on and be who i am
i just dont belong here, i hope you understand
we might find a place in this world someday
but at least for now i gotta go my own way
dont want to leave it all behind,
but i give my hopes up and i watch them fall
- everytime -
and all the colors turn to gray,
its so hard to watch it all fade away...
you know i never wanted to hurt you
- High School Musical 2

hoping for a new beginning, to take me away from my surroundings, so i can finally say goodbye,
wondering what'll become of us, when we are all old and gray,
and this time that we've spent together, was well worth our wait,
think of the fun that we had, not caring until the next morning,
it feels so good to go through life, with your eyes half open,
we are all one in the same, we are lovers, and brothers and sisters, and we're most of our friends,
these years have passed us by so fast
        it seems like we never got the chance to realize how good life really was and let the moment last
and it feels like it was only yesterday when we walked into this place and i said i can't wait till i get out of here,
and now as we walk down this aisle with four years all rolled up in a scroll
you can't help but think, hey where did the time go?
we are all one in the same, we are lovers and brothers and sisters and we're most of our friends,
hold on to your memories hold on to those little things and i hope you receive as much as you get
                                     cause when you die they're the only things that you can take to your grave,
these are the days of your life, & dont let them pass you by
                                   cause you never know when you might take your last breath, and so take a deep one tonight...
good friends we had along the way and good friends that didnt make it to where we stand today...
and as we appraoch our final day, where we all will go our separate ways,
so go hug and kiss your friends and say goodbye to them...
"the graduation song" by the Dave Matthews Band

i think i can end it here... off to class... then work... then more class... ughhh

And valentines day's approaching... </3

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 17:22:22 GMT

One night to you, Lasted six weeks for me,
I guess i'll never know what love means to me,
But i've got a bad, bad feeling,
It's gunna take a long time to love.
it's gunna take a lot to hold on.
It's gunna be a long way to happy, yeah.
Left in the peices that you broke me into.
I just want to thank you for all the sleepless nights,
and for tearing me apart, yeah
... but i'm going... and i'll get there, i wont give up...
i'm determined to be happy,
with or without you... ~ "a long way to happy" by Pink

All i all it's just another day now,
You're falling down,
What you gonna do?
Standing on top of the world tonight.
No one's looking back at you.
Stand tall. It's going on. It's going on.
It's gonna be just fine.
You're holding on.
Holding on today... ~ "all in all" by Lifehouse

i cannot cry because i know that's weakness in your eyes.
i'm forced to make a smile, a laugh, every day of my life...
~"because of you " by Kelly Clarckson

A thousand other boys could never reach you...
how could i have been the one...
Comin' down the world turned over
and angels fall without you there..
you know the lies they always told you
and the love you never knew -"black balloon" by the goo goo dolls

believe the news - i'm gone for good
thinking back, i forgot to tell you this-
i didnt care that you left & abandoned me
what hurts the most is ;
~i would still DIE for you... "Car underwater" by armor for sleep

Baby you promised me that you'd always be there for me,
tell me what's on your mind?
What happened to the "i love you"'s?
The hugs the kisses and the rendevous?
What happened to you?
You said you'd never change.
What happened baby talk to me.
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy.
But now you're breaking my heart.
Open Your eyes, that's what people tell me,
but it's hard to let you go,
i can't take your lies if you're spending your time with someone else,
then you gotta let me know.
What happened to me and you?
You said you'd never change,
and now you're breaking me heart.
~"broken promises" by Mandy Moore

I'm not satisfied w/ where i'm at in life...
am i supposed to be happy?
all i ever wanted, it comes with a price... "cat and mouse" by Red jumpsuit apparatus

Concrete girl,
dont fall down,
in this broken world,
dont stop thinking
dont stop feeling
one step away
from where we were
and one step back
to nothing... ~"concrete girl" by Switchfoot

My heart is dead, and so are you...
the desire to change,
to deconstruct all of my past failings,
but where to begin all i have is hope,
all i need is time,
i'll wipe the blood from my cheek
and go on w/ my day...
I wont lose hope, i won't give in...
Just live and breathe,
try not to die again...
I try not to die again...
~"crimson' by Atreyu

We've waiting far to long to, watch it all crash and fall through
so when you feel like shit you've gotta keep on pushing,
If you saw the world through my eyes, then you wouldnt feel so high rise,
It's time to take our chance, you gotta sit back and hold tight.
Theres forces working in our heads but we dont understand it,
I need a map to find my way out all the time,
there's curses lurking in our heads but we dont want to find them
we need to come back down and face what we've become
The more i think, the more i wish i could push stop, then hit rewind
What i would give to have a day back then when no one really cares,
i remember when we all used to kick back, take days off school
So many times i've smiled, so many times i cried but never did we try
Never did we try because...
It's haunting me, i'm so alone
i'm just trying to find my way back home
i'm so alone, alone. ~"curses" by Bullet For My Valentine

It took me by surprise
When I saw you standing there
Close enough to touch
breathing the same air
you asked me how i've been
i guess that's when i smiled and just said fine
oh but baby i was lying
what i really meant to say
is i'm dying here inside
and i miss you more each day
there's not a night i havnet cried
and baby here's the truth
i'm still in love with you
that's what i really meant to say
and as you walked away
the echo of my words
cut just like a knife
cut so deep it hurt
i held back my tears
held onto my pride
and watched you go
i wonder if you'll ever know
what i really meant to say
is i'm really not that strong
no matter how i try
i'm still holding on
and here's the honest truth
i'm still in love with you... by cyndi thompson

Baby I must confess,
We were bigger than anything.
Remember us at our best,
And don't forget about,
Late nights,
Playing in the dark
And waking up inside my arms.
Boy, you'll always be in my heart
And I can see it in your eyes,
You still want it.
So don't forget about us.
"dont forget about us" by Mariah carey

SUPER BOWL TODAYYYY
GOOOOO GIANTSSSSSSS ; D
more later... Thanks loves <3

making up for "lost time"

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 04:08:21 GMT

"waiting for your call,
i'm desperate for your voice
listening to the song we used to sing
in the car, do you remember
it's playing on repeat
i was born to tell you i love you
and i am torn to do what i have to
every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes...
what's your fantasy"
~Your Call by Secondhand serenade

Do you mean what you say when there's no one around?
You took my love for granted, why oh why?
the show is over, say goodbye,
all the world is a stage, and everyone has their part,
but how was i to know which way the story'd go?
how was i to know you'd break my heart?
~Take a Bow by Madonna

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead,
yesterday is a promise that you've broken,
Dont close your eyes,
This is your life & today's all you've got now,
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have,
Dont close your eyes,
This is your life- are you who you want to be,
This is ur life- is it everything you dreamed it would be?
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose,
Yesterday is a kid in the corner,
Yesterday is Dead and Over,
This is your life- are you who you wanted to be,
This is ur life, is it everything you dreamed it would be?
~This is your life by Switchfoot

Stab my back, it's better when i bleed for you
walk on me, it never was enough to do
i can't get past here, falling faster,
true... it hasnt done a lot for you
yeah, were you thinking of me, when i needed you the most?
well i hope you're happy...
~Stab my back by All American Rejects

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violins
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any
~speeding cars by imogen heap

somewhere over the rainbow, way up high,
there's a land that i heard of once in a lullaby,
somewhere over the rainbow, skys of blue,
and the dreams that you dare to dream,
really do come true,
some day i wish upon a star
&&wake up where the clouds are far behind me,
where troubles drop like lemon drops,
thats where youll find me,
somewhere over the rainbow,
blue birds fly, over the rainbow,
then why can't i?
Song title -Over the Rainbow

who can say where the road goes,
where the day flows, only time?
and who can say if your love grows,
as your hearth chose, only time?
who can say why your heart sights,
as your live flies, only time?
and who can say why your heart cries,
when your love lies, only time?
who can say when the roads meet,
that love might be, in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps your heart?
who can say if your love groves,
ans your heart chose, only time?
and who can say where the road goes,
where they day flows, only time?
Who Knows? Only Time...
Who Knows? Only Time...
~Only Time by Enya

a turning tide
lovers at a great divide
why d'you laugh
when i know that you hurt inside
and why d'you say
it's just another day
nothing in my way
i dont wanna go
i dont wanna stay
so theres nothing left to say?
and why d'you lie
Dont know what you lie for anyway
well for a lonely soul,
you're having such a nice time
~Nothing in my way by Keane

                     Bring your IQ
          and TRY to understand
          Just cause i'm listening
     Dont mean we're still friends
             Can't fix my problem
           you crossed a thing line
          You cant just work it out
            not with me this time.
                Fuck your Opinions,
           Fuck your lack of spine
        When you are miserable
          Know that i'm just FINE
                       ~Nazi Halo by Jack Off Jill

"...i've learned one thing, and that's to quit worrying about stupid things.
You have four years to be irresponsible here, relax. Work is for people with jobs.
You'll never remember class time,
but you'll remember the time you wasted hanging out with your friends.
So stay out late,
go out with your friends on a tuesday when you have a paper due on wednesdsay.
spend money you dont have, drink 'till sunrise. the work never ends,
but college does..."
                                       - Tom Petty

If you forgive me all this
If i forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
and it's all coming back to me
when you see me like this
and when i see you like that
we see what we want to see
all coming back to me
the flesh and the fantasies
all coming back to me
i can barely recall - but -
it's all coming back to me now...
~it's all coming back to me now by celine dion

sorry it's been a while... in the middle of the holiday i moved...
but i'm now settled in soooo yeah
short entry tonight... but that's okay...
i dont have many viewers this early in the game yet... lol
more later in the week

~<3 ;/....

new year, new beginnings...

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 16:46:46 GMT

Superstitions arent meant for lovers
Under covers, undiscovered is your skin
i am lonely, please let me in
you're probably wondering
what was i proving... are you choosing?
am i losing you tonight?
is it over, over? Are we fading?
i never wanted anything
the way that i want you
but my words dont seem to matter
and you look at me and i can see
the lies you're running to
but my words dont seem to matter
i'd rather have you tested and true
It's my day to show you what you're missing,
turn around, and feel the winds of change
upon your face again,
the warm breath of your closest friends
i'm waiting, i'm waiting... are we fading?
i'm scared we fell apart
i'm scared we'll never make it right
take my hand and hold it tight, hold it tight
"Tested and True" ~Secondhand Serenade

back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair,
or someone breaking your heart.
for months i've held it together,
but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I remember i kept thinking that i know you never would,
and now i know i want to kill you like only a best friend could.
Everyone's caught on to everything you do.
As if this happening wasnt enough,
i got to go and write just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun covers over my head.
So dont apologize.
i hope you choke and die.
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven,
but they dont tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.
I cant let you let me down again.
So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with,
cause i've seen more spine in jellyfish,
i've seen more guts in 11 year old kids...
"Seventy Times 7" - Brand New.

Have i ruined all that you've given me?
I know i've been Selfish
I know i've been Foolish
but look through that, and you will see,
I'll do better, i know...
Baby, i can do better...
And dont you know my heart is open
it's putting up the fight
and i've got this feeling
that everything is alright
and dont you see
i'm not the only one for you...
but you're the only one for me...
"Stay Close, Don't Go" - Secondhand Serenade

Rollin' down the highway
Like a rocket
God, I'm headed to town now
You can't stop it
Got wheel in my hand
As I stand
On the floor
Of the board
Of this car
On the road
Got this woman in the back seat
Yeah she's my wifey
In the middle of the delivery
Man she saves me
To this day I don't know why
She picked me up
When i was down on the road
With the wind when it blowed

Well a son's gonna rise in a mile
In a mile
You'll be feeling fine
In a mile you will see
After me
You'll be out of the dark, yeah
You'll get your shot
"Son's Gonna Rise" ~ Citizen Cope

I'm rackin my brain trying to comprehend
how, for some unknown reason
our status will remain as friends
i'm destroying my mind
trying to understand how with little to no effort
you've got me eating out of the palms of your hands
there was not a single spark
when my lips landed on yours in the dark
but regardless of what happens next
you're my beloved, you just dont know it yet
tonight i made a secret oath
to keep chasing after you
and i am not going to stop
whether you like it or not
we're murdering our lives
trying to make it work
but you and i both know that we are a lost cause
and nothing more than specks on this earth
yeah i know you listen to this all alone up in your room
i know you love how all this music's about you
"The Secret Oath" ~The Spill Canvas

i put my heart in your hands,
i wanna hold you now,
everything i held so dear,
disappeared w/out a trace,
oh all the times i've tasted love,
i never knew quite what i had,
Darling if you hear me now,
never needed you so bad,
trying to get some explanation here,
for the way some people are,
how did it ever come so far?
Sail away with me,
what will be, will be...
"Sail Away" ~David Gray

Look at me,
my depth perception must be off again
cause this hurts deeper than i thought it did.
it has not healded with time,
it just shot down my spine,
would you find it in your heart,
to make this go away,
and let me rest in pieces?
You got closer than i thought you did
"Rest In Pieces" ~ Saliva

It's been 7 hours & 15 days
Since u took ur love away.
I go out every night
& sleep all day.
Since u took ur love away.
Since u been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose.
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant,
But nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares 2 u
It's been so lonely w/out u here
Like a bird without a song
Nothin can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor
Guess what he told me
He said girl u better try to have fun
No matter what u do
But he's a fool
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares 2 u
I know that living with u
Baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
"Nothing compares 2 u"-Sinead O'Connor

i remember when you came with me that night,
we said forever,
that you would never let me go,
but here i am again,
with nothing left inside,
know i dont wanna,
but i gotta let you go,
See now i know your kind,
you fake it easy,
just to please me,
Good bye,
i gotta let you go,
it's you, there's nothing i can do
"Let U Go" ~Ashley Parker Angel

There's a lot there... but hey it's helping me clean out my away messages... lol
more tomorrow... meeting up with a boy later... shouldl be fun... there's some potential there, so i'm told...

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 04:19:38 GMT

being the first entry and all, i figured i'd just explain why i got one in the first place....
i recently got dropped by a lot of my friends for being extremely verbal about my feelings towards my ex...
he and i dated for two years, and things were perfect...
so i thought, so everyone thought, parents included...
then all of a sudden, college came along, and it rearranged his entire way of thinking...
and the day before our two year, he broke my heart, and has somehow gone from being my hero, my true love and my best friend;
to being the biggest asshole i have ever met, and even worse, my enemy...
when he broke up with me he told me that he felt that things about me needed to change, so me, watned to get him back, spent thousands of dollars seeing a shrink to try and "fix" things for him.

music, being my life, helped me get through a lot of it.
i am one of those people who set my away messages to be lyrics from songs, and our mutual friends found one of my "lyrics" of the day to be a little harsh, and decided to tell him, in turn he calls me a "psycho bitch" because i "can't get over things and move one with my life" and tells all of his friends who then in turn decide that i am no longer wanted around... although, thank goodness, little by little, they have realized that i am in fact NOT a psycho bitch, and that HE is the one who can't get over things and just move on...

however, over the past 4 months since he broke up with me, there have been MANY MANY MANY songs that have gotten me through some very harsh fights, some very hard days, and even harder nights... the shrink i went to see suggested that i keep a journal, i get my feelings out... to clear my head in a sense... i am basically going to be sharing these lyrics along with my thoughts and meanings behind WHY they mean so much to me... not so much in a diary sense, but more of a journal, a notebook i keep to reminisce on when things were hard, that way i can appreciate what i have.

i hope you all enjoy...

p.s. there are some VERY good bands that i will be sharing, so i suggest you listen to them if you havent before...
p.p.s. not all that i write here will be lyrics, some are quotes, some are just thoughts, and there is a large chance that i will be sharing my activities of the day as well. =D